ʍʋɴɪʁɑɧ ♥

Ramdom ~
i receive this mcg on 22 september 2009 at 3.53am.(below in red).
Dearest miimii,
i know i hurt you last tyme.
To tell you the truth, i still love you.
but idk why i hurt you last tyme.
i was so stupid. I regret alot. Imy larh mimi!
ily and i cnt forget about you and i also dont want to
forget about you also.
U larh pompan yg slalu uat i happy eventhough kte tk abes gaduh.
U larh ppm kali pertame yg i pena nganges depan u and u lap kan air mata i sume.
You help me when i got probs. I appreciate it alotx!
Wish i can be with you again! I know that you still love me.
there's no need to hide it from me. i know already.
i promise this time i wont hurt you and wont leave you.
i dh btl2 da nk start serious alek ngn u. I perlukan you.
Tanpe you hidop i susah. I nk u cntrl i alek cm dulu.
Plz come back to me mimi:'( Idk why am i crying now?
haish! Nie kali bukan swit tok ok fyi.
I luarkan semua. I tknk simpan2!
Ily dearest mimi! I need youu!
This mcg really spoilts my mood alott as not in the bad ways but
it makes me down and sad. its been a long time since i
feel this feeling of sadness and pain im feeling right now.
i have been hurt for alot of times but still why must i kept this
feeling called love deep down my heart for you ?
After so much has happen im still standing strong and i know
even if it hurts me alot i still will try to be strong than before.
Is this a Neverending love ? story ? pain ? hurt ? tears ?
ouhpleasee . i had enough of all this hurts ? crying ?
why must you come and go in my life ?
you come and go in my past and now you come again into my life .
why cant you just stop and go ? and forget about me and i forget about you ?
why cant it be in that way ? why must you keep coming and hurting me ?
ITS NOT FAIR YKNOW !
what did i do that i have to deserve this ? what ?
i didnt play around with guys feelings nor let them suffer, Infact
im trying to make them happy being with me. thats all nothing more.
i didnt hurt them like how you doing to me ?
i didnt lie to them about my feelings .
i didnt make them suffer like how im suffering now .
did i ? NO i didnt .
why must i be treated like this with youu ?
You were my everything in the past ?
what you did was to let me lost the trust i had for you.
and here we are separated .
you came back in the past to ask for forgiveness .
yes i did give you chance cause i know EVERYBODY makes mistakes and deserve a chance.
but why am i SO STUPID to give u the chance ?
but what to do my love for you is strong then for someone else .
i learnt from my mistake.
and here ? the past repeating againn.
prove it to me if i really mean alot to youu.
i was so stupid to give you another chance.
why am i so softhearted to give you another chance despite
all the things you have done to me.
ouh please ?
im so mad ? angry ? at myself .
why cant i just let go of this feelings ?
why must i gave another chance.
will this time round work ?
success ?
start afresh ? againn ? hurt ?
ouhwell, im soso stress about this feelings .
i did gave him another chance to prove it and maximum for 1 month only.
if only he success than i will be his back againn.
im letting fate decide whats gonna happen next.
i thought i could spend my holiday nicely and alone and NOT with stress attacking me.
But NOW ? EVERYTHING screwed up ? my feelings are upside down againn!
STRESS about whats gonna happen now ?
sometimes i feel why am i so stupid to know you in the first place ?
But i NEVER REGRET knowing you cause you change me.
IM HURTTTT ~
I Hope the decision that i have made earlier on wont hurt me again .
i hope that he will prove me wrong to whatever i say.
i hope that everything will be fine.
i dont need to have a boyfriend to live my life happily because i
have WONDERFUL friends around me to make me happy.
and a PERFECT family for me to cuddle with every day and night.
THEY ARE THE PRECIOUS THING THAT HAVE HAPPEN IN MY LIFE !

P.S. IM HURTTTT ~

POSTED BY ʍʋɴɪʁɑɧ ♥ ! AT 11:33 AM

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